Post by SojournerPost by HylanderPost by SojournerI thought I was going to lose my job too, John. Even up until a year
ago or
Post by HylanderPost by Sojournerso.
It's going on 14 years now. Have I been "mindreading" too much? I think
so.
Mindreading is definitely something people like me use to guess
people's motives. I often find out I am wrong and now I know what
causes my poor judgement.
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderPossible. I see that they might be backing off or that I might be on
probation right now. Its like another 90 day trial.
Actually, this wasn't the case. It's indeterminate. My situation has
gotten so bad that they are calling in a few others to help out. Not a
bad thing. Still, I'm getting heavy pressures and lots of
manipulations right now on me.
Post by SojournerYou "see"? John, I thought you couldn't read people very well.
I can't as I actually got several things all wrong. I have "scared"
them from doing anything right now. They are willing to wait a bit on
their decision I think. I don't know though. Things can happen at any
time.
Post by SojournerMaybe it's i
your head? Not saying it IS, but If you can't read people well and you still
come to conclusion on what people are thinking of you all the time, then
perhaps you are "mindreading". IF so, its all in your head and its a lie.
Could be.
Post by SojournerRemeber, you can have even 50% truth but it that truth can be used to
convince you that the other 50% is truth is also truth then you don't have
truth at all but one big crafty lie.
Its a confusion game and it is definitely crafty and untrustworthy
what they are doing. They don't play these games with other people.
Only me cause they know they can get away with it with me. I let the
nice people get away with the worst things it seems. People are
cannibalistic, step on others, opportunists at times. If they see
someone whom they consider fair game and with weaknesses, they will
take advantage of them....regardless of how good they are at times.
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderPost by SojournerIf teaching is a gift, then pursue it. It's hard to push a teacher. They
can
Post by HylanderPost by Sojourneralways blame it on the student. "Hey, I'm trying, but the kid's a total
moron, ok?"
Case of "greener grasses" then perhaps?
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderI should be careful when thinking the grass is greener. There is
definitely a preparation and overload factor there.
Could be. I wouldn't rush into doing kindergarden kids any time soon.
Actually, kindegarten and first grade are managable somewhat. Its 2nd
grade and above that is hard. Night college coruses for older adults
would be okay with me too. Older people seem to have this social
maturity barrier towards being total jerks at times. (well, I take it
back, depends)
Post by SojournerPerhaps you need to be part of the idea commitee.
I think an idea committee is not profitable enough for them unless its
a scheme to blind people and rip them off either more secretively or
efficiently or lucratively.
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderI have several "bosses". (maybe like 4).
ONE of them is the official one. If not, you organization is rather crackpot
in organization.
It is. My papers say I report to this VP. He becomes Sr. VP and I now
report to some R&D manager. Because the R&D Manager needs "help".
Anotehr VP came in and is working with this R&D Manager and
temporarily managing me. Then, the CEO comes and tells me stuff to do
and then I get some Seniority developer trying to tell me he's making
the decisions. It's a mess. Everyone says it's more like a wheel than
a tree org chart.
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderYes, I very much wanted to do this. I did some of that in one meeting.
I didn't get into my meds. I thought it was just too much "weakness"
to put on display. I know how some bosses think when some people get
too "sensitive" when you go in to them.
THey may get uncomfortable, but hey...that's management. If they can't deal
with such things they don't need to be there.
But it wouldn't have worked well....lots a people on meds and don't
complain so no biggie I guess. Of course, my situation IS different.
I'm 32 for ___'s sake and I'm on hypertensive meds.
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderPost by SojournerThe worse he could do is set you free, right?
Yes. Free as in on the street and free ketchup packets to live on. ;)
If he sets you free because you tell him you have medical issues that are
causing concern and he fires you, that;s grounds for all sorts of legal
action. They wouldn't DARE.
Heh, true. Sounds like it might actually work to help me
then.....albeit the truth too.
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderI think there is some insight being gained that there are just some
skills and unique complexities that will take a long time for anyone
else to assimilate. Today, I felt rather in demand. I wasn't always
able to help but there were a
few things I was able to clear up quickly.
That's good.
Look, you may be different and not fit in. I am the same way, but if you do
somthing and do it better than anyone else, even total "jerks" will
"tolerate" you even if to exploite your abilities.
Story of my life, my friend. Its what I rely on. I have outgrown all
attempts at using my personality to influence people except among
Chinese maybe.
Post by SojournerPost by HylanderPost by SojournerIf he's not and he fire's you, use your newfound free time to seek your
DX,
Post by HylanderPost by Sojournerand when you get it, get a fired up lawyer, sue your former employer and
take your booty, buy a little bungalow in the Caribbean with a hammock
and
Post by HylanderPost by Sojournerbeach. Then, buy me a ticket to fly out and visit and show me your
latest
Post by HylanderOh that would be fun. I would really like to meet you some day. My
persevs are probably a bit boring typing up code etc. ;). I have some
dream projects on the back burner in the current effort to save my
skin at work.
If you can bring to to fruitition, make a presentation at work. If impressed
at it, they may even put you in charge of directing the project.
Code? Java script? Probably. My last programming was with Basic on a
Commadore 64. Went to bed at night with "lists" running through my head. Had
to quit. Never touched computers again until ten years later.
My last perseveration was linux. Now with my PDA which uses active sync on
windows I haven't touch it either. My latest perseveration is with ADD. Now
that I know what I have now, I can learn live the rest of my life without
having half my brain tied behind my back.
(Just thinking I wonder what my IQ is NOW? I alway score borderline genius
on the tests but the time limit always kept me from crossing over the Mensa
line)
Don't know. I was invited to Mensa a while back. I was in a percentile
I think...I don't know that I care to be in such a group.
Post by SojournerOh...by the way. You a java person. Have you ever got this dang "messenger
service" (whether it is related to msn messenger or not i don't know)
pop-ups come on your screen telling you that the advert is using an
exploitable function in windows and that you can stop it early before all
the advertisers find out about it by going to (some web site address) to buy
the program to fix it?
Messenger Service is a Windows thing that is in Services in
Administrative Tools in Control Panel that you can "Stop" and then
make "Manual" or "Disable".
I have seem some vicious little popup/spamem schemes lately. Cydoor
was one, TrafficSyndicate is another. Also, Kazaa came with some
Ts.cornerband thingy. My Adaware is too weak. I need to buy the real
dope for this scoop of stuff.
So, are you not on the Autism Spectrum?
John